isabel - larvae lounge

aaaaahhhh im a bedroom stoner don quixote. with a notebook. and a really cool galaxy projector night light thing.

Oh Chiron, my wounded deer!
There is a piece of death stuck in
your achilles heel.
The hunters hunger
nourished by your tender flesh,
their arrow heads removed
with brutal precision
and thrown into the riverbed.
My centaur with a bleeding heart
polished like a stone by the force of Mars.

i wish someone wrestled my pen out of my hand
until i learned how to behave

i fell in love last night

At midnight neil and i got high and went to the casino
old people smoke cigars and sit at the slot machines
everyone is a hungry ghost here :(
i made eye contact with a hollow eyed man...
am i a hungry ghost? yeah.
flashing lights everywhere kinda like the ones in my phone
sexy anthropomorphic dragon beckons me to his slot machine
we go to krispy kreme
it's open 24/7!
the workers make the donuts in a glass box so people can watch
lit with fluorescent lights, donuts move on conveyer belts
the lights never turn off and the conveyer belt never stops
the spectacle

i often feel deeply dysphorically horribly wretchedly lonely and i just want someone to fuck me properly no actually please dont touch me can you hold me? will you hold me? my friend said he believes artists oscillate between psychosis and lucidity do you know where i can get good drugs? do you know anyone? i need drugs i can’t breathe i need love i need drugs psychosis and lucidity might be the same thing samsara is nirvana is samsara is nirvana is samsara is nirvana

i was in times square and manhattan was gridlocked because it was christmas i took something i think it was laced i’m so in love with everyone im so in love with everyone

im cat sitting for my friend and im on acid if it wasn’t for this cat i’d put my head in the oven i looked in the mirror i saw a rotting corpse i cant stop laughing THE KITTY CAT CAME OUT OF HIDING!! im free im free im free ive always been free